We allow so many people to be involve. And we allow so many cares and concerns. But we haven't taken a step back to clearly see what they have done for us.
I've never forget the day that we started our relationship, on the 15th December 2009.
Just 3 days after Zoukout. When I actually went down to join you and some others for a drink. And when I find it weird that you actually asked me out. Even though all along I knew that you had feelings for me. But I never thought you will actually pop out the question. Because some concern people also asked why are you taking so long to pop it out or maybe you'll just never pop out this question.
I still remember the first time we hold each other hand was even before we were together. I never forget how you took the initiative to send me home taking 961 even though at that point of time we could have cab home. I knew you wanted to drag the time with me.
Just like the first time I went to your place after a drunk night at East Coast Park. Always remember the anxious face of yours when waiting for me to reach there. And that link to the first time I sat on your Honda CBR 400.
Time flies, when our relationship begin to count in months, we started to quarrel/ argue. And every disagreement that we had will always link to quarrels and arguments. And like you say, every time when we quarrel or argue, I'll bring out breakup.
You know sometimes, I also don't understand why would I keep bringing out the word. But sometimes I just feel that I really 配不上你. You often stop me from saying these, but on realizing how good you're, often I would think that a girl like me don't deserve you.
I admit I've a very bad temper ever since after I quit Zouk. You can say is Zouk who change me, or maybe you can say is what happen at Zouk that changes me. But I still love Zouk a lot, not to talk about whatever I dislike. But it allow me to meet some of the people you know I really love, and that includes you.
2 days ago, we sat down and had a very long conversation about our relationship. Hopefully, we both learn something from it. Because I know, we don't have this kind of chances often. Not talking about the length we'll be together but the time we have for each other.
Just about an hour or so ago, you send me this message:
Baby.. I can't sleep.. Fall also just now woke up again.. Hai.. I thinking of you.. Here my emo message.. Here it goes..Time flies, it's been 3 months plus le. Missing the days you sleeping beside me.. Our journey really very difficult.. Like the waves up and down.. How much I wish you will be right beside me now, hug me to sleep.. Dear, it's you who light up my love life again.. I hope that this light will never go off.. Cause I really love you a lot a lot.. And I don't know what will happen if really one day you walk out of my life.. Your place in my heart will never be replaced by anyone else.. Baby, I love you..
Well.. Many times, I feel very 委屈 because of your families. Like I never understand why do I have to give in to the unreasonable thinking of theirs. But I guess, if you choose to stand with them totally, I would probly gave up this relationship.
Seriously, I don't know if I would ever leave your life. Because whatever will happen tomorrow is a mystery. No one will know.. I hope I'll never. Because if there comes a day we separate, I guess, I'll stop being involved in relationship already.
But for now, no matter how tired I'm, I'll try my best, for your sake. Hopefully, you'll see. And we'll build the solid foundation that we've mention the other day.
Thank you for all that you've done. If without you appearing in my life, I guess I'll still be single now. Thank you for making me fall in love with you. For without you, I guess, I wouldn't have move on from the past.
Love you, to the max,
xoxo
