yesterday was terrible. you know? the red day is here again, and i'm screaming off the pain in silence. whole day, fighting the pain alone. allowing the reds to just flood like that but having the cramps on and off. and all i feel was, taking a knife to cut everything out.

so there goes my plan of paying aunt a visit. =[

anyway, we've just started talking. and i think she did realize that i'm sick. coughing and coughing all day. haben been easy for me.

straights off for 2 days, looks more like 2 mc days for me. tomorrow gotta start work, straight 5 days. she's back, and i have to start debating again.

holidays will be gone. so soon..

drinking a $1.80 but contains 1000ml worth of soya milk. i guess is more worth it than a cup of bubbles tea that causes $1.50 per cup. well.. this analysis will come to you soon, once you're feeling poor.

anyway, just paid off my first and second debt, handphone bill and the music school june's school fees. and i'm left with $XX for two weeks. SAVE! and the bad news come, i've to pay for july one, before i'm finally taken off from the school. cos i didnt give them one month notice, so they said they cant terminate me today, which is the last lesson of june. hopefully, but july. i would be able to received some pocket money from both side. and i can slowly clear my debts.

jenny will be back next week, hopefully, i can meet her on my only weekday off. planning to go granny's house tomorrow again. not only to visit her, but see Gwen as well. my cutie little niece. and hopefullt will be able to pay ah yi a visit on sunday. heard form cousin that she has been nagging at me for not visiting her, even tol i'm at yishun at bf's place. LOL

nothing has change much. and nothing can strike up the topic between us. how?

and holidays will be gone, in a week..

1st. after much consideration, i'm not going for the pz chalet. no need to talk me out, i'm not going no matter what. there's some personal reasons inside. don't ask, cos i won't tell. and i'm no longer the same me who can give up school days for chalet.

2nd. i dont understand why he can just dont care even when he's not be respected? wtf?

alot of things happen.
it's just too hard to be explain.
i'm so sorry that i just shut my previous one lidat.
but trust me, i din did it willingly.

i guess this onw wont be long too.