internet was dead on the 17th. waiting for some heroes to save it. and finally uncle james came down today to give it a fix.

thank you very much.


down with freaking cough. am feeling drowsy now.
I WANT TO GO SLEEP NOW!

goodnight!

Side note: Bob, you better read and tag me. Since you're the one who wanted me to do it. Roars!

Name 20 people whom you can think of right now. Don’t read the question till you’ve named them. At the end, choose 5 people to do the survey.

1) Jonathan
2) Vennesa
3) Pei Shan
4) Hong Jiayi
5) Sean LYW
6) Jiaxin
7) Mei Xuan
8) Becky
9) Benson TSM
10) Fatin
11) Bob
12) Mia (oh ya, just saw her yesterday)
13) Adham
14) Suria
15) Suniyah
16) Hidayat
17) Qiqi
18) Jiajia
19) Ziting
20) Nigel






1) How did you meet 14?
My ITE classmates from year 1 till now.

2) What would you do if you’ve never met 1?
I would have never understand the meaning of Love..

3) What if 9 and 20 dated?
LOL! I'll be laughing my heads off.

4) Will 16 and 17 date?
They wouldn't.

5) Describe 3.
Someone who knows me inside out since 9 years old.

6) Describe 7.
She once go against me. But ever since we're good friends, I guess, I haven't really mind the past.

7) Do you know any of 12’s family members?
Is boyfriend considered?

8) What would you do if 18 confess that he/she likes you?
For God sake, SHE is my cousin.

9) Who is 9 going out with?
The girlfriend.

10) When was the last time you talked to 13?
SMS counted? SMS will be just yesterday. Talk will be last Wednesday.

11) Who is 2’s favorite band/singer?
Hmm... Good question. I only know she loves music.

12) Would you ever date 4?
If she's willing to be a lesbian.

13) Would you ever date 1?
I AM!

14) Is 19 single?
As far as i know, yeap!

15) Would you ever be in relationship with 11?
LOL. He's my mentor/ brother. How could i?

16) School of 3?
NYP.

17) Where does 6 lives?
Woodlands.

18) What is your favorite thing of 5?
He never fails in cheering me up.

19) Have you ever seen 10 naked?
Fatin? Only her back, if i'm not wrong. That's so long ago, where PZ team still exsist.

And here are the 5 unlucky victims:
1) Vennesa
2) QiQi
3) Hong Jiayi
4) Fatin
5) Sean LYW

It's finally 2 and a half year for baby and me. Hopefully, the rest of the days will be a happy time for me, except for the ESDDS test? Which i have totally no confidence of.

Had a fulfilling Tuesday night with my baby. I started to share with him how Christ has place a part in my life at then, and now. And I guess, he has accepted the fact that I still believe in Christ, which I won't forbid. I may be helping in the bai bai ceremony at home, but that is what I do to respect my elders. Because I'm not born a Christian. So I feel that I still have to obey these elders who do their part to give birth or bring me up as what I am today. Also, we shared a lot of laughter, mindset about life - friends, families, work, etc..

And we did talk about school. I told him that I actually kind of regretted choosing Marine at my main subject. Because when class starts, it's really something that will kill my brain cells away. And I also begin to wonder what should I do if I make it to Poly? What course should I take.

It's like, what adults always say, and which I believe is true:
Jobs that pay you well, requires you the knowledge, the passion, the seeking of learning more. I won't deny that I decided to choose Marine is because I know that it does pay well. But what I didn't know is the amount of fact you have to know, even before stepping into the shipyard.

Gosh.. I feel so like in a friend's position. Who couldn't decide what to do when she was graduating. And maybe it may be her turn to ask me the questions I once asked her, when she was stuck HERE.

At first, I thought 2 days of mc was enough for me to recover any pain that's going on in my body. Went to school on Wednesday, the back of my neck still SO much. But after all, is a short day, still can tahan.

Things wasn't well when I woke up on Thursday morning. There was a bump behind my neck. The left side of my body became very stiff. Especially my hand.

Went to doctor. He said my sleeping position something wrong. So my nerve was press (but don't know by what), have to rest more. Another 2 days of mc.

Always at home with Mum. Haven't spend any day of this week with boyfriend. Is so record breaking (unless I'm out of Singapore).




This is my dog, Peanut after a full grooming on Wednesday. He looks very tired after coming back from the groomer side.

And know what, my Granny got bitten by a dog. WTH. And the dog owner act as if he/she was not at fault.

Don't let me see you man...

The moment the questions were threw at me, I thought is only right for me to remain the family concept in your mind. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe after not communicating much, I don't know you as well as your friends.

I feel so lousy at being your friend. Cause I realize that after leaving the school, even though we're just a few blocks away, I've never done my part as your suppose to be Besties-lism.

I'm so sorry for everything. Maybe I just can't help you much for the fact that also, I'm not at that level too. So I won't understand.

It's just me. I'm sorry.


An MC for today and tomorrow. Cool or what you call it. Mum got her MC too. But a day longer than mine. LOL

I think he's getting bolder. By just dumping me in his draft. Fuck!

I'm going to game now. I've zero mood for communications!

Was about to head to the bed, when I realize that I should blog. but I'm not going to introduce any new things from TCC yet, because there'll be a change.

Just keep checking out for updates.

I met Jenny on Wednesday, together with Sean and boyfriend. I guess it was a great catch- up except that I was having my blues, or should i say red. and that my mood just FLUNG. We caught 'Wanted' at Cathay. i would say, it's rather good. =]

Just watch 'Penelope'. Boyfriend says it's 'ok lah'. I don't like the ending personally. I don't know why. Maybe when it just ended too simple? I had a great talk with boyfriend today, about our work. And if we are going to just stop it somewhere. I'm not too sure. But boyfriend says that I was a little mean to some of the peeps today. I'm sorry but....

Seriously, I'm into much of considerations nowadays. There're just too many question marks in my mind. Be it regarding families, friends, boyfriend, work, .. and so on.

And I'm thinking, is it the time already? To step up and make the right decisions for myself, just way before I really get so bothered by it. Let's think hard man..

By the way, to Vennesa, JiaXin and MeiXuan: The outing on 12July will be push back. Due to everyone having commitments in their own life. But I promise that the outing will be confirm soon but earliest will be after Singapore's birthday.

Oh ya, have been crushing into quite a number of stars this few weeks. But, I never get their pictures. Just get them from the net, unless he's Jay. LOL..

Mr holiday, no more le..

i'm like thinking really hard of what to post early in the morning. i havent got my sleep yet, am worrying about the barista training later.

anyway, TCC will be changing their menus in a month time. So do check me out for more updates. if you dont know what TCC is, please check this out -> http://www.thecoffeeconnoisseur.com/

i just twisted my leg a week ago, and i dont even know why is the pain only acting up after a week. is truly a WTH feeling. if you can understand. i've been having alot of revolution during work, at home, in the relationship nowadays.

is it part of growing up or what?

maybe i should post more later, after the training. and tell you what's good in the new menu.

holidays, almost done..

back to work. can i just say, everything is rubbish. i'm so freaking disappointed with myself, and the conclusion out of everything. first drink for the day, wrong SOP. WTF? i cant see what's wrong with myself. and i have to let tiny winy people spot me. everything is just so wrong.

i seriously think,

ms toh, put down ur fucking pride man. is just not worth to get angry for a tiny winy bits of happening. you should just get your fucking fat ass started on what you should be doing, and not what you shouldnt be champing about!

anyway, boyfriend came to pick me up from work. and i seriously feel that, i always feel very wrong without you. dare my mouth to say that break word again. i think i'll just make myself single all life long.

and i seriously think,

ms toh, you've such a great boyfriend. why are you picking out the tiny winy just to start the fire? why not just tell him how much you miss him? and stop picking up past tense to talk about? you freaking bitch, be contented on what you have!

maybe i just need a reminder from you, you, you or you?

maybe i just need a little more love from you?

i can see the fact of myself getting pissed on tiny winy, but why cant i pick myself out of it?

maybe i am just trying to seek attention?

OH freaking bitch! stop seeking attention!!

and so..

holidays are ending very very soon..

and i need time, to study mr. calculas