I'll be finishing my ITE studies very soon and am contemplating to work first before continuing my diploma studies. Because I've lost interest in studying and find it harder to motivate myself to move on as a student. And with further consideration of my mother, who is very worried about her own career now. I really don't want her to always think about me, my school and my studies.

I blame myself for not doing well in O's. And I really blame myself for giving up so easily on Lasalle. Thinking back, I should have changed the course instead of giving it up totally. If not I'll be holding a diploma certificate in April'09.

I feel that I've no time to think about others except 'what's next up for me' or even 'what'll my future look like'. I'm so at a lost of what to do. Freak!

I don't even know what I want to study next. Sh!t.

Come to think about it, I just feel like I'm wasting time and energy. Looking around, seeing people all graduating with a diploma certificate soon, or going to a university soon, I feel so help-less. I just feel that there's no one I can talk to, for the fact that they are not in my position to feel the emotional stress.

I'm at the wrong for not doing well. I play around with my future. I did nothing good to help my mother. Freak!

Stup!d. Now after finishing my Higher NITEC, where should I go? Polytechic? Or work to earn enough to study pirvate diploma?

Any part-time diploma courses? Where?

DOTS.

On side note: today is the lauch of the TCC menu. Go down and try your luck to se if you can be the lucky winner for a free dine-in.