I've lots of things to BLOG about. But I've got freaking no time. To cut things short for now (because I'm dying to go to sleep), I'll blog tonight, or tomorrow.

SEE YA!

After a long long long long disappearance from school, I finally received my big big big consequence now. And it sucks! Something which I thought I have already escape from. Freak!

Anyway, I've been debarred from the examinations this semester. And I have to retake this sem module again next next sem, which by right I am suppose to graduate already. And worst of all, I'm taken out of MOS (Marine Offshore) class. And will be transferred to M&E (Mechanical & Electrical) from next semester onwards.

IT SUCKS BIG TIME!

But, I still have a module teacher helping me to fight for her module. She wants me to take the exams this semester so that my 3.1 sem will be good life for me.

OK. Back to advise.

THINK BEFORE YOU ACT, OR YOU'LL HAVE TO BEAR ALL CONSEQUENCES!

FREAK!

I'm always wondering why am I addicted to this person for so many years. Is it because of his talent? His vocal? His songs? His looks? His fortune?

LOL.. Fortune won't be the reason, even if I really got the chance to know him or even blah blah. The fact that I understand 天地下没有不劳而获的事. (I don't even know if i get the character right) Well, anyway it means, there's nothing you can get for free without working hard for it. And his fortune is what I envy and not greed on. =]

And to the extend that I can influence my mother to like him as well, I did he really is too talented. His songs always managed to catch my heart. Is just like when he release a new album, there'll be 10 songs in it, and there'll always be 5/10 songs that capture me, whether it's a fast or slow song, a love song or whatever. Imagine someone who can really discribe for you how you feel when you were down, you want to explain it, but you don't know how to, but then this fellow wrote songs that describe it so clearly. But yet this fellow doesn't know me, don't even know I'll buy the album, not say listen to the song. But the songs he writes just capture you LIKE THAT! It doesn't have to be of what he has been through. And I seriously think he is someone who speak of his mind. Cool!

Personally, I don't him handsome. But I still think he is good looking. Because he is those kind of guy whose look won't make you sick of it after sometime when you keep looking at him. He can be always look at, but not those kind that will make you dream of your prince-charming. But still certain angle of him in photograph still makes me drool. (And I guess that's why, since young, he's my standard for my boyfriend. Except for my current boyfriend. LOL) It's just too difficult to find a guy as talented as him, to accept me, someone plain. Oh well.. My boyfriend is talented in his way, I guess.

However, I find him having similar background with me. And that is we are both with our mum. Even though both parents are still around. So when I listen to the first song about obeying you mother, in Chinese is 听妈妈的话. I was quite surprise that this could be a song, but at the same time this song pull me and my mum relationship closer.

So, let's enjoy:

Well, you can read from the title. It's my ITE bud, Hidayat's birthday. Let me wish him first before I continue blogging. =] Happy birthday Yat!

OK. Back to blogging!

Work's fine today. Everything is going well smoothly except that there's a lot of internal problems now. I'm freaking pissed by it, and my final verdict is that I'm so going to leave this company. As in, since go any boutique is also the same, must as well leave the whole place. I know I'll let some people down. But I really cannot take it already.

Plus, I've talk to mum about my decision already. I think I may just continue to study polytechnic. And to force myself to study finish studying poly, I may just sign on with the army. Still in consideration. I'll see how. Comments and suggestions is allow. Thank you.

Anyway, I have something to complain about.
I went to the Cineleisure Xin Wang Cafe just then. Damn angry! I ordered my food at about 2am, and the bill came 5mins later when my food have not arrive yet. I find it very stup!d. Don't they find it rude when you bill the customer when the things they order haven arrive yet? Then they tell me that I can order other things that I want again. So, this means that it will come in a separate bill since I've already paid for the first one. BUT! The thing is, if some people don't realise. If you order in another bill, this means that you've to pay for another service charge and GST right? I told my boyfriend about this, and he so totally agree. So we just left after we finish what we've order. Actually, I wanted to order dessert one, but too bad. It really pissed me off damn badly. Cos, I previously have problem with the boutique already. That time is they key the wrong thing on my bill, I told them nicely to change the thing before I pay for it. Then they keep insisting that I just pay for it, since the food is of the same price. Stup!d. But the thing is, my boyfriend like the food there. (But then, he just complain to me saying that not only the service have gone bad, the food also don't taste as nice as then) I ordered this diced- meat noodle soup or something. And you know what is it? It's actually maggie mee with ba- ting (can diced meat) and egg. I'm so disappointed with everything that I've encounter with them.

Anyway, I got something to share. My 'friend' send me this:
When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.
When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.
When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions .. she is wondering
how
long you will be around.
When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at
all fine.
When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.
When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.
When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.
When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....
Find a Guy . who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back
when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ...
kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. Who
holds your hand in front of his friends. Who is constantly reminding you
of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Beware, long entry!

I may or may not blog a long entry. Am thinking hard what to blog. Somehow, lost some creativity in this, and I don't want my reader to just stare into my blog seeing me reciting on what I'm doing everyday.

But still going to blog on certain things that just happen a few hours ago, eg, my work, date, blah blah.. But just to nag: The army have not reply my email. Damn long. I send it like, two days ago? And yet, I have not received a reply till now. BAAA!

Alright, just 9 hours ago, it was my first time to hands on the new menu. No kudos!! The customers are boring people, they keep ordering old menu drinks. I'm so bored by them. And guess what? (I seriously think only Bob will get this part) There are these two customer who came in and ask for Mon Cherie. (Bob, remember this drink that I used to love so much? LOL)

Shall not bored the rest of the reader now. I just went to Suki Sushi for supper. And I'm so surprise at the price that they are offering. Boyfriend says it's because they serve in smaller size. But after the meal, we decided that they sell it cheap is because they don't serve fresh food? You can see so many plates of mua ci passing you, and all the fruits that don't look so fresh. And also the plates of sushi looking uneatable. Lucky boyfriend is craving for bento. So we ate their 'bento' set. Cheap, $9.90 only. But it's not as nice the one serve at Sakae. Boyfriend looks so glum after the meal and told me that he only enjoys eating Sakae Sushi. Too bad, Suki Sushi, my boyfriend don't like you. What worst, there's only 2 inattentive staff working around. (Nowadays work part time the money damn easy to earn, but why not TCC?)

Anyway. I got a story to share..
*clap hands*

I have a friend B who has a girlfriend younger than him by 3 years. My friend is 20 years old. And this is not the first my boyfriend tells me that our friend B complains to him about his girlfriend.

Anyway, B and his girlfriend are together for quite long, say, about a year? (If I'm not wrong) The first incident happen when B brought his girlfriend out to our friend birthday gathering. Anyway, we decided to watch this movie. Then, the girlfriend wine out of a sudden saying that she doesn't want to watch the movie that we wanted to watch. And so poor B, got to go watch movie alone with the girlfriend while the rest of us watch another movie. After the movie, we went for supper at someplace that sell prata. And the girlfriend again wine out of a sudden saying that she doesn't want to eat prata. And imagine, it was my friend birthday! And guess what? B cannot take it and just took the girlfriend home. LOL
The second incident happens during Chinese New Year. All of us were happy gambling. And it was only the very very early hours of day 2, about 2am. Then B was happily gambling with us too. And then the girlfriend just sat down at my friend sofa (we were at a friend house) and starting to grumble. Keep saying that she is very tired and stuff like that. We told her to rest at the sofa first and will wake he after the game is finish. She did not. Continue wining. Freak! Till about 7am, all cannot take it then wanna go eat breakfast, but the girlfriend face damn black, so B had to send her home then meet us back at the friend house to go breakfast together.
The third incident happens months ago, B met her up to break things clear with her. Unfortunately, B asthma attacks. And all she did was cry. And when her home was just nearby (Nearby as in take the lift/ stairs, you can reach) And she choose to call my another friend for help. Stup!d.
4th incident. Weeks ago. She met up with some other guys. So suay, her mother called B to ask if she is with him. Of course she wasn't, and B told her mum that. So B went down to wait for her under her block and coincidentally saw the mother also waiting there. When the girlfriend came home, the mother scolded her and B. Guess what? The girlfriend didn't apolognise to B but scolded him for not helping her to cover her lies in front of her home. And now she can't go out to anywhere other than school.
5th incident, days ago. B was having exams together with my boyfriend. And the girlfriend called B and scolded him for not informing her that he went to study with my guy. And cried over the phone and nag and blah blah blah..
I'm still expecting more incidents to happen since there'll be still chances that I might get to see her. But stup!d right? My boyfriend damn bad, keep asking B to break off with her.

I don't know. It's up to him. But seriously, I think she needs some serious lecture..
By the way, do you understand my story?

Yeap, I just changed my skin. Hopefully now the fonts are bigger and easier to read. (And hopefully it'll attract more people) LOL. I'm just joking. I'll blog more tonight!

Certain things can ask for advises. But there'll ultimately be some that no one can help. I met up with this one person yesterday and she kind of help me work out the place that I'm stuck with whatever that in my mind now, and yes, indeed I'm seeing things better than the day before. But when comes to human relationship problems, she told me that I can only build and work on it. Nothing much else.

Seriously, she reminded me something. Certificate is too important in Singapore. Not only that piece of paper, but the qualifications that is stated on it. Sh!t man. I just feel that things are getting way way too complex for myself. Da|\/|n.

Well, freak it. I guess the only way for me now is to go to school later on and have a really nice chat with the teacher. And plus, to wait for the receiver to reply mt email before I can settle anything on my mind.

Can't help it with the stress level. But I do hope I can keep the level there and not over the mark where I cannot even handle myself.

But I seriously need motivation.

Side notes:
Congratulation to TCC on successful launch of the new menu and the reopen of Great World City. =] All the best!

Oh ya! And do not forget about the Golden Hunt. It's now on, all the way to September 14th.

I'll be finishing my ITE studies very soon and am contemplating to work first before continuing my diploma studies. Because I've lost interest in studying and find it harder to motivate myself to move on as a student. And with further consideration of my mother, who is very worried about her own career now. I really don't want her to always think about me, my school and my studies.

I blame myself for not doing well in O's. And I really blame myself for giving up so easily on Lasalle. Thinking back, I should have changed the course instead of giving it up totally. If not I'll be holding a diploma certificate in April'09.

I feel that I've no time to think about others except 'what's next up for me' or even 'what'll my future look like'. I'm so at a lost of what to do. Freak!

I don't even know what I want to study next. Sh!t.

Come to think about it, I just feel like I'm wasting time and energy. Looking around, seeing people all graduating with a diploma certificate soon, or going to a university soon, I feel so help-less. I just feel that there's no one I can talk to, for the fact that they are not in my position to feel the emotional stress.

I'm at the wrong for not doing well. I play around with my future. I did nothing good to help my mother. Freak!

Stup!d. Now after finishing my Higher NITEC, where should I go? Polytechic? Or work to earn enough to study pirvate diploma?

Any part-time diploma courses? Where?

DOTS.

On side note: today is the lauch of the TCC menu. Go down and try your luck to se if you can be the lucky winner for a free dine-in.

Please click onto this link if you're unable to read the contents.
http://www.thecoffeeconnoisseur.com/emailer_tccgoldenhunt/golden-hunt.html
Note: This event only starts on the 20th August! The day the new gallery launch.

TCC new cakes LAUNCH!
Are you a great lover of cheesecakes? We've a wide range of it for you to choose. And also if you're a strawberry lover, you can too head down to any boutiques. None of those 2 lovers just head down and there're 17 different types of cakes for you to choose from.
And you can enjoy a cup of coffee together with it. Unsure of what drinks to go along with the cakes, you can asked any crew member standing there awaiting to serve you.

Unsure of where TCC is?
http://www.thecoffeeconnoisseur.com/moby/cms/boutiques/

Enjoy your weekends!

Had a great night yesterday with boyfriend. Was talking to him about ours and my problems. We had a great 2 hours talk face to face and everything seem to be better for me already. At least, I do not have to keep everything inside of me, and when I really get trouble, I guess the emo emo thing will just come back anytime, anywhere.

And therefore, I believe that it's better to talk out everything than keeping everything inside of myself. And seriously, my boyfriend is very awesome!

And lalala, I'm so so so happy because I was bless!


But seriously, I'm seeking for You. And just wanting you for one Sabbath.

I seriously miss those days at Your place. Where I get to understand You and learn different things from You. I'm praying that someone will just bring me back just for one Sabbath. But I just don't know who to go to. Tell me who..

Happy 43rd Birthday, Singapore! You're so loved by me! Muacks!

I don't feel well at all. I feel very vexed, horrible, terrible, difficult, disgusted, stupid, and blah blah blah. I just don't feel well at all!

I haven't really spend my time at home, and I'm wondering how does Mum feels when she is alone at home. I really feel like taking a break from work especially. Somehow, it just disappoint me to see true faces of people. And especially when I've heard from others that this person is great and blah.. How can people just be so faked in front of you (and is so freaking obvious), don't they feel anything? And why should people take advantage of people? Work life! I've so much to mention yet no words is coming out of me to describe it. It suck, you know?

Boyfriend boyfriend, where are you? I need you so much!

Have you really regretted on any choice that you made? Or have you regretted on any advise that you didn't take? I had. And I guess I super regretted it by now.

Remember the part on the warning letter? Haven't got it, went to school today. Know what my teacher told me? He said, "What happened to you? Ever since after the holiday, you seem lost. You better start changing NOW!" And he stressed on the last word - NOW. And I'm feeling so fucking terrible. I know I'm not as motivated as I used to be. But somehow, I know a part of me still love the school, the peeps and the freaks. Oh fuck it!

And know what adds up? Is just family problems.

Problems after problems! FUCK!


And please, if you read my blog, there's no need for you to spread what you've read. Thanks.

Well.. Today marks the second day of the hungry ghost festival. I found it quite coincidence that the 1st day actually happens to fall on the 1st of August. Well.. I guess it's the first time I've met the Chinese and English starting the 1st day of the month and ending the last day of the month together.

Anyway, for all of you who have patiently waited..




By the way, TCC will be launching a new series of cakes (all are made by TCC) on the 12 August. Don't miss it. It's worth your try!
New food and beverages, I can only say, it may be shocking to some of you. But I guess, by then you will start to feel a total experiences from TCC already. From the trainings that I've went, the only thing that I see from all this backstage people is that, they are trying their very best to give you the best.
Don't miss it too!

On the personal side updates..
I'm praying very very hard to go to school regularly and no more warning letters to be send. I guess it's really time for me to wake up and stop wasting my mum's time.

Just caught "Money Not Enough 2" at Cine. For all who really feels that it's money that's important than kin, watch it. I guess maybe it will make an impact to your thoughts. Money may be important, but when you don't have money, who will be the last person, standing by your side, hugging you, consoling you?

My throat doesn't seem to be healing, what wrong?

I'm drowsy now, I'm going to sleep.

GOODNIGHT!