back to work. can i just say, everything is rubbish. i'm so freaking disappointed with myself, and the conclusion out of everything. first drink for the day, wrong SOP. WTF? i cant see what's wrong with myself. and i have to let tiny winy people spot me. everything is just so wrong.

i seriously think,

ms toh, put down ur fucking pride man. is just not worth to get angry for a tiny winy bits of happening. you should just get your fucking fat ass started on what you should be doing, and not what you shouldnt be champing about!

anyway, boyfriend came to pick me up from work. and i seriously feel that, i always feel very wrong without you. dare my mouth to say that break word again. i think i'll just make myself single all life long.

and i seriously think,

ms toh, you've such a great boyfriend. why are you picking out the tiny winy just to start the fire? why not just tell him how much you miss him? and stop picking up past tense to talk about? you freaking bitch, be contented on what you have!

maybe i just need a reminder from you, you, you or you?

maybe i just need a little more love from you?

i can see the fact of myself getting pissed on tiny winy, but why cant i pick myself out of it?

maybe i am just trying to seek attention?

OH freaking bitch! stop seeking attention!!

and so..

holidays are ending very very soon..

and i need time, to study mr. calculas